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Stepping Backwards
04:21
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she sits across the room and watches him in silence
of course he holds a pen
lost somewhere inside himself and in his drink
she sifts through the papers again
adding up the money owed
subtracting what goes out from what comes in
they killed themselves over and over
and always born together again
until they made it here, a home
the most simple success that doesn’t eat them alive
she walks across the room to stroke his hair
he flinches surprised, he looks in her eyes
“let’s stay” he says
“trying again feels like stepping backwards”
“let’s stay” he says
“why start again? i love it here with you”
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Malled
05:31
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she’s like a boob job in flip-flops she’s wearing all black but she’s malled
she wants to dress you all up like the guy from her favorite store
she’ll take the punk rock, the art pop and all the new wave that you’ve got
but what she secretly wants is “new kids on the block”
you’re gonna buy her house
you’re taking xanax and zoloft and knob creek and ecstasy’s next
whatever it takes to get outta bed
we’ve got cheap flights and bus rides and rental cars and money to spare
but there’s nowhere to go where no one’s seen us before
you’re gonna buy her a house
when the emptiness feels
the only thing that is real
and there’s no one to steer
you’re gonna buy her a house
she’s your boob job in flip-flops she’s wearing all black and she’s malled
so you rush her right home show her off to your mom
you sold your old bike, your art life, you got a new car and a dog
you sold yourself short so she wouldn’t get bored
when the emptiness feels
the only thing that is real
and there’s no one to steer
you’re gonna buy her a house
when it’s just you and she
has a list of new needs
and the bills you can’t breathe
you’re gonna buy her a house
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you can cover over spray-paint and pick up all their trash
but you feel it coming back to you you know it travels fast
it may bury me but i wont be the last
so have a good look at your children
and the food around their smiles
then a glance across the world
and tell me theirs deserve to die
and i am sorry but its as much your fault
its in the shit you buy its in the vote you don't cast
the kind of car you drive filled up with conflict gas
when you cross their bloody palms with silver
you're setting up the back-room deal
where it all goes wrong
i will go about my business at the bottom of this well
on a humid afternoon inside a roadside motel
this live may bury me but i wont be the last
i'll have a hard look in the mirror
at the bones around my eyes
take a glance across the world
and tell me this ain't paradise
johnny walker black and a bucket of ice
its in the shit i buy its in the vote i don't cast
the kind of car i drive needs too much fucking gas
when i cross their bloody palms
with silver i'm setting up the back-room deal
where it all goes wrong
god knows i steal
god knows i take what's not mine
god knows i waste
i waste whats not mine
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Ungrateful
05:16
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you never got to go back home
your father said they'd only see you alone
but you were scared they'd get you in a corner
so you can stay in bed with me
we'll get tattoos to show that we're complete
break every rule they use to control you
i'll be your lover forever
we'll be ungrateful together
you never want to go back home
there's no one there you pretend to know
just the blood that drains the life out of you
so if this life is just a game
i think we should act like we're winning
i'll reclaim the truth, your stolen youth
to keep you from quitting
i'll be your lover forever
we'll be ungrateful together
i'll be your lover forever
there's no one i'll answer to
there's no one i'll answer to
you never got to go back home
your father said they'd only see you alone
but you were scared they'd get you in a corner
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Exie
02:46
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cheerful stacks of smoke
from the red brick homes
are waving down a winding two-lane road
broke-down tobacco barns
lean on empty farms
and i feel so far away in this car
from bluegrass meadows we used to roam
where our troubles were left alone
time she’s a jealous thief
that preys on the weaknesses of everything
i feel so far away in this car
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Marissa
03:32
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marissa took a shower and no one really knew her but me
she made it sixteen years without really trying
and i want her
and i want her dead
marissa took a shower and i had my way with her slowly
she made it sixteen years without a fear of dying
and i want her
and i want her dead
she turned me, i tore her down
i never fail to dream about
the way her body lay so drained of life that summer night
she turned me, i tore her down
i never stopped to think about
her brother’s angry stares behind my back
and i want her
and i want her
and i want her dead
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Before I Leave
01:35
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she needs to be quiet cause her throat is hurting
but she doesn’t shut up
she never stops talking and i never get bored
she can speak in languages that i don’t understand a word
she’s just twenty-one and nothing but beauty
she’s got a whole life ahead of her but it’s not a life with me
she promises to give me a new name before i leave
before i leave
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Movie Scenes
03:53
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every time you call i think you'll say
that you've finally given our game away
it used to fill me with a sinking dread
now i'm longing for the day when this lie ends
movement causes jealousy
the light from cakes could break your heart
but i'm not in some movie scene
i see how we've grown apart
i've got more secrets that you'll never know
the one with you is of the worst but i let it go
a year ago i wrote it as a song
my guilt is lessened every time you sing along
you can sing it to the block
you can sing it to the cops
you can sing it to the girls at the restaurant
cause they're so goth
sitting on my rooftop feeling fine
the girl across the street is planting questions in my mind
every seed that blooms another doubt
her gardens overgrown while mine is withered from this draught
belief, it was for yesterday
today i'm gonna need the names
my faith was never all that strong
and this is no place to get lost
movement causes jealousy
the light from cakes could break your heart
but i'm not in some movie scene
i see how we've grown apart
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Read Nausea Again
03:00
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i put marks on myself hope i'm easier to find
you backed me in a corner said "you're born to be mine"
but i've been confusing cleanliness with godliness
this numbing repetition with a lack of success
so i have to go if you can't follow me then why should i wait for you?
she sells coffee in a short skirt
the yellow eyes never touched her
her shoes are too small in some attempt to look cute
she looks like she just bought mall
she was a genius she was gorgeous
it's ridiculous how stupid she pretends to be
confusing meaning with money
he wanted to save the world but now he's just so bored
took a ride on a subway train everyday
the colors taste great but the taste doesn't change
he said "i have to go, if you can't follow me then why should i wait for you?"
i have to go if you can't follow me then why should i wait for you?
i put marks on myself to remind myself
read nausea again
read nausea again
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Post-Rock Idol
05:35
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i will cede flash and speed
rising stars at shoulders length
burning holes into my sleeves
molted skin returns again
holding onto what we've found
i hope that you can forgive me
letting go of what we have
can't deny my feelings have changed
holding onto what we've found
i hope that you will forgive me
can't hold this time around
still its the hardest thing
still its the hardest thing
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11. |
I Erase
08:16
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been thinkin 'bout the baby that we might have had
if i didn't leave you like that
on that floor in berlin to rush back to her arms again
in my american state where there's always free ketchup
to cover the taste of the endless disgraces
here in our bed i could not escape
my own reflection in your tears
but there in her bed i could learn to fake
the promises meant for your ears
been thinkin 'bout the friendships that we might have saved
if we weren't both so filled with pain
in the back of the nissan we should have kept our clothes on for him
and when he didn't come home we both should have known
that floor in berlin has caught up to us once again
here in our bed i could not escape
my own reflection in your tears
but there in her bed i could learn to fake
the promises meant for your ears
choose a weapon but don't lie again
laying on your stomach takes the heat away between your legs
the second lesson and i'll die again
captured on my stomach i erase
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Allegra Gellar Los Angeles, California
Jeremy Wilkins, Denver Bon, and GL3 were Allegra Gellar. Pez played bass from 2004-2006 and Olive played drums for a bit in
2007-2008. Dan played drums here and there. They made indie-rock, indie-folk, and folktronic music from 2003 till 2012.
In 2012 they completed their final album, The Secret Plans Of Men, and finally satisfied with what they'd done, promptly disbanded.
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